Life Sucks Right Now

I need to vent because I am so freaking bummed out right now! The doctor scheduled surgery for May 8th, but we had time for one more cycle before then. I was just keeping my fingers crossed that my left ovary would cooperate and ovulate. I kept hoping that maybe, just maybe, we'd get pregnant so that I wouldn't have to do surgery.

I went in for my CD12 ultrasound this morning. It turns out that I have two follicles, both on the right. The doctor is so pessimistic about this cycle that they aren't even going to do an IUI because they think it's a waste of $400 since that right tube is blocked. It's a sad day when not even your doctor is on your side.

The only good thing they said to me? "It doesn't look good for this month, but ultimately it's not going to happen in our time. It'll happen in His time."

I'm just bummed out! Why can't this go right? I feel like a big old fool for even holding out hope.