Tomorrow is D-day

We have a new doctor. A new doctor that we can trust. I don't think I completely understood just how much having a doctor that I didn't trust played into my anxiety about getting pregnant.

I had my first appointment last week, and I really like her. She went through fertility treatments herself to have her, now teenage, child. I really feel like she understands what we are going through. She is much more nurturing than my last doctor.

She is also more thorough. I appreciate the thoroughness because it leaves little room for worry, and I certainly do not need little unknowns. It is those exact unknowns that cause me so much heartache. For example: Did I ovulate? I never had a + OPK, but I got my period, so I must've ovulated right? Are my tubes blocked? Do I have a good ovarian reserve? What if my hot flashes are caused by early menopause and not a side effect of the medications? What if I have a hostile cervix? Why is it taking so long? My mind is a wonderland of worry.

I am happy to say that all of these questions (and more) will be answered by next week. ANSWERED. One way or the other, I will have an answer and will deal with whatever those answers are.

Tomorrow is my personal D-Day. I've got a HSG scheduled. I've had this long-standing fear since the ectopic that my tubes are blocked. I secretly believe that this is what caused the ectopic and is also the reason that we have not gotten pregnant since then. It seems like every other person on the message board who miscarried in September is already pregnant (or has lost again :( ) since then. What about me you ask? I'm trucking along. Just like always. Doing fertility treatments and still not pregnant. I'm hoping we will have some answers this month.

D-day countdown: 20 hours. YIKES!